quarantined for cancer

I'm sitting in a hotel room alone for the next 4 days b/c I have cancer. Needless to say, getting cancer sucks but this whole year has been one thing after another. I start this blog in review of the worst year ever...

May 2008 I have been recovering from shoulder surgery which I can honestly say is the worst DRAWN OUT pain I've ever had (cuz birthing my son was by far the worst pain ever but that was over in a day). I've been in a sling since the day after Christmas and have been spending my days going to physical therapy and trying to change diapers one-handed. I remember having this rollercoaster ride feeling almost constantly waiting for the bottom to drop out. People told me to chill out...little did they know just 8 months after the first surgery I tear my shoulder again.

I was tossing my 40 pound son around and rough-housing and actually felt it tear (teeth clenching as I type this). I sat down crying b/c I wanted to know why RIGHT THEN why this was happening to me. And by February of this year I would have my answer...